Goodbye 2009 !

what a crazy year ! had many ups and downs but i guess thats life right? it started off great.. then went downhill from there.. then i guess it went up.. but it's all good.. i guess its what i got myself into.. weirdly enough so many people passed away this year.. it's sad :/ R.I.P Lola.. i dont really know what to say.. haha but uhmm.. i guess we'll see how 2010 i'll try to keep it up then.. haha Happy New Year to whoever reads this.

summer part two?

so pretty much everything i've written in these past few blogs were pretty emo.. haha i think the only time i write in it is when i'm sad.. or frustrated or something.. and its one of those times.. haha but yeahh.. i wont lie.. summer up until now was the greatest time i've ever had with someone in my life.. yeah there were ups and downs but it was definitely worth it.. but noww.. i can say it's all gone.. and i have nothing left.. i'm slowly losing my mind.. but i guess you can say its for the best.. i'm just so frustrated with myself.. i ruined something perfect for me.. but i'm just gonna move on.. i got my license :D so i drive now.. with no car.. :( but SOON! i get my mommy's car.. haha so text me if you wanna hang out :) the past few days have been the hardest.. like in my life.. so far.. it sucks :( but tonight it got better.. i got to hang out with the guys.. kyle.. and mike ;) hahaha :D just kidding.. but kyle got drunk :( but he was funny.. lol i just got home.. and i'm already sad again.. watching a cinderella story.. haha brings back memories.. anyway i'm probably not making any sense.. and its like i'm just talking to myself.. but yeahh. never listen to me when i say i'll write often.. cause i never do.. haha :P anyway text me if you wanna hang out or anything i'm available.. now.. haha 

SUMMER :)

so from the past few blogs.. i've been pretty bummed about my days.. its still pretty lame but i'm getting through it with my new friends :) haha let me just say this.. i hate bitches from torrance. some you might not even know i hate them.. but oh well :) and i usually never hate anyone.. anyway.. this summer so far has been swell.. drama still catchin up to me.. which sucks.. but whatever. Monday i went to the beachh.. Tuesday i went swimming at Zeinas with her brother, sister and Erica. Wednesday.. did nothing all day! then decided to go to disneyland at 8pm.. watched fireworks show and fantasmic with sophia :) then went on splash mountain.. SCARIEST SHEEIT EVER FOR ME! i was seriously flipping out before the drop.. begging nini to switch spots with me.. haha then we went to the haunted mansion.. then we tried going to space mountain.. with 40 mins left til closing time.. but then we figured we wouldnt make it.. so we just went on star tours.. that ride still makes me wanna throw up.. haha then we ran all the way to the tea cups.. like we seriously booked it.. and we got there right on time.. so we did that.. and it was soo.. idk my brother spun that ishh FAST.. and i couldnt keep my head up.. it was crazyy.. then we got off.. and snuck on again.. and just went into a different cup when we were supposed to get off.. its crazy when someone who can spin it fast.. haaha then yeahh.. we went home.. it was fun! :) thursday.. woke up.. michael jackson died :( friday.. bonfire with some old friends which was pretty chill :) saturday churchh and hung out with vinay. and then today.. i swear it went by fast and i didnt even do anything.. i played left 4 dead for like 2 hours.. by myself! be proud.. then i went to go see transformers again for the 2nd time with my parents.. then i went to play basketball.. we didnt really play.. we walked the whole game it was funny.. haha then just shot around and did some drills.. haha i love those guys! then went to del taco.. haha oh yeahh so i'm hooked on farmville on facebook.. you kids should play it.. haha :)  anyway.. maybe i'll update this more often.. since its summer.. with nothing to do.. haha

mark! i promise we will hang out soon k? i PROMISE. dont worry.. i'll bring the good stuff ;)

ROBIN! friday! k? it'll be a great day! :)

donovan! i hope i spelt that right? haha but BLACKIE!! we're gonna watch it soon k?

and finally.. JAYYY! we better get crackin on our list.. i say Disneyland is first on our list :)

i think i've promised all of them a trip to disneyland :) haha 

well i'm out.. finally kinda tired.. haha earlier when we were "playing" i almost knocked out on the floor.. but now i'm like awake.. i should get some sleep tho.. its like i'm talking to myself.. 

well.. good night world. 

its may!

so.. like i said march sucked.. and so did april. haha those were probably the worst two months of my life.. or year.. haha but now its may, hopefully things will turn around.. lol today was a complete waste of a day.. didnt do squat! but whatevers.. lol i never do anything anymore cause i'm a loser :( yesterday was chill tho.. pacquiao killed it last night! haha 2nd round k.o. RIDICULOUS haha and before that i went to go see my friend kevin at his track meet at Mt. SAC.. haha it was pretty funn watching it.. i mean that was the first track meet i ever went to.. and probably the last.. hahah jk jk! :) but seriously we were there FOREVER! but its okayy i had my boys there :) lol too bad they didnt come and watch the fight with us tho :( haha AND i'm not going to GVC tonight to see and play basketball with them :( sooo lame.. i feel soo useless todayy.. haha my birthday is cominn upp! if you wanna come to my little party just hit me up :) haha anywayy i'm out.. gonna figure out what i should do.. haha text it.

- rj 

march sucks.

its been a while.

so a lot has been happening in the past two months or so.. a lot of ups and downs.. i mean ALOT.. but whatever i'm getting through it and i'm actually doing really good. hmm what went down lately.. mmm well i'll just talk about my weekend :p soo friday.. winter formal :) haha that was funn :) my date was kyerin cubos :) haha we all went to lazy dog before the dance.. andrew tani, dylan and their dates..  that was pretty chill. the dance itself was alright.. haha it was funn hanging out kyerin tho :) and marcus, faith, kaela and courtney. haha it was funnny.. but yeah Saturday.. was Valentines day! didnt do anything with anyone.. haha but its okay cause i spent time with my family that day. It wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. We had korean bbq.. soo good! but i get full easily.. haha so yeahh.. Sunday i went to watch "Hes just not that into you" with vinay :) that was pretty funn, but i went home after and just watched the all-star game. you cant stop KOBE MVP or Shaq.. haha so after that.. i went with my brother to his church GVC? idk what its called but its in Gardena.. i LOVE the people there.. honestly.. if i could i would go to that church.. being SDA doesnt really mean anything to me anymore, honestly.. its not that i dont believe in it its just its not teaching me.. i dont know its hard to explain.. thats a different story.. but yeah i played a little basketball with them.. haha and then listened to my brothers band practice for their performance on the 27th! you guys should go come out and see them! :) it'll be greeat! :) i'm super stoked for it! haha then after that i stayed and watched them play "BANG!" its a pretty cool game :) but yeahh.. we stayed there til like 330 am.. totally got introuble when we got home but its all good.. i enjoyed it.. i had fun :) then Monday.. my mom tried waking me up to go eat somewhere in cerritos but i ignored her.. saying i didnt wanna go so she tried to scare me by putting on a scary show while i was asleep but i just got up and turned it off.. but yeahh.. my brothers friends came over.. Kyle and Andrew.. haha they're cool :) Kyle is a freakin baller, plays guitar, sings AND loves God! :) what are the odds of that one ;) hahahaha just kidding :P but yeahh.. uhm.. all and all it was a pretty swell weekend.. hopefully this week doesnt go by slowly.. even tho we only have 4 days.. it still goes by slow! sheeeit! lol well yeahh i'm tired i think i'm gonna take a nap. OH YEAH ! we made it to CIF so support us on Thursday @ home 730. hopefully we do well..  well yeahh i'm pretty much done with basketball.. or for rick.. but yeahh i'm done.

- rj

ps. support my brothers band "Good Night Friday" playing at the awakenings cafe 730. Feb. 27th

anndd.. first CIF game at Torrance on thursday 730 :) 

THANKS! :D 

first blog of the year.

its been a long while since i've last written in here. the new year so far has been.. pretty interesting. actually.. very interesting.. i'm pretty bummed that i'm basically out for the season.. and its my last year playing.. and i'm freakin injured.. thats retarded.. i just want to friggin play!! ahh! plus if i do go all out.. and practice and all that.. he'll still probably hand me his palm thing.. fucking retarded.. whatever. i'm over it.. i'll just play basketball at the park. anyway.. other than basketball.. schools been alright. i've been getting my grades up.. no more D's.. haha and 1 C! yess improvement.. lol the worst of all... boys.. i've got 3 great guys on my tail.. and i needa decide quick.. or else.. i'm screwed.. haha jk but forreal.. all of this is becoming stressful.. i've been trying to stand strong.. but i'm weak.. i'm too weak for anything.. nothings just working out for me.. what a great way to start of the year right.. pfft..

CHRISTMAS!

So Christmas Eve.. i woke up at 3 that day.. 3 pm because the night before i took some "pills" around 2am and it kept me knocked out till 3pm.. so i took my shower and got ready.. took me about an hour and a half because i was having a bad hair day :( Then kuya les came and picked me up around 4:45 - 5 and so we left and went our way to diamond bar. It was hella traffic.. took us longer than usual to get there but we got there around 6:20 not too bad.. Everyone was there, the Maines Family of course, my family, and the canlas family.. we got there before the barnums, rocillos, and calixto family.. but they eventually got there.. so we all ate, hung out, watched wall-e and SANTA SHOWED UP! :) he came to our house and gave all the cousins and of course little sophia a gift :) hahah :D and then at 1145 we played twas the night before christmas. Then by then it was 12 and it was time to distribute the gifts :D that took like 20 mins then the last box was for me.. and i was told to open that infront of everyone.. it was a white box.. and i opened it.. there was alot of newspaper and magazine scraps.. and i had to take out like 12 handfulls of it before i got to the item! oh i had to break through styrofoam.. is that how thats spelt? lol anyway.. so the rectangular shaped thing was wrapped in layers and layers and thousands of layers of newspaper.. and finally i got to it! it was a MACBOOK! WOOO! i was soo excited! thanks mom, dad and kuya! :) i love you guys :) so after i opened that.. sophia had a BIG gift too! from kuya mike and his friends.. it was a huge cut out of WALL-E! like those theatre ones! its so SICK!! i want it.. lol then once everyone got gifts we all opened them.. i got a 2 purses, a jacket, a shirt, a pillow, a dress and an ipod dock! yess.. then after that.. we just hung out for alittle then watched some filipino show.. and then we were gonna play cranium but we didnt have enought people so me, nini, kuya luke, my brother and kuya mike played whoonu! its soo funn.. lol and that lasted till about 3? then me nini and my brother wanted to stay up so we played pictionary.. but you had to draw it with your eyes closed.. hahaha that was soo funny.. then we got bored so we played MASH. let me tell you.. NOT a good life for me and nini.. hahaha my brother got a good one.. then we played the "or" game.. basically "dog or cat" but more INTENSE things.. which was funny that lasted till like 530 and we just knocked out.. then we had to get up at 830 to head over to anahiem for the cousins secret santa..i helped cook a big breakfast for all of us.. pancakes, eggs, turkey bacon, rice, and all that good stuff.. lol Melanie had me! she got me the fluffiest pillow in the world! some rainbow slippers! a necklace and a shirt! thank you :) and i had kuya luke.. i gave him a flannel, 2 black v necks and a sweater.. haha then after that.. we watched WANTED and i fell asleep half way through cause i only got 3 hours of sleep! then we went back to diamond bar.. and we watched the laker game!! WOO! GO LAKERS! ariza is soo good.. but kobe is better :D lol Lakers killed it tonight :) then i fell asleep after the game then we headed home.. and now i'm on my macbook cause its so uberly cool :) i love it.. lol thanks vinay for keeping me company last night by talking to me.. haha and being totally jealous about my gifts ;) haha and thanks for the surprise build a bear :) its cute! haha anyway.. i'm gonna get some sleep. got shoot around practice in the morning then game at 130. wish us luck!

good night ! merry christmas and happy holidays. wish you all the best :D

with love,

RJ 

thanksgiving

thanksgiving break went by too fast :(

wednesday went to the doctor to get my back checked.. then she sent me to the place to get xrayed and that took like a million years! then i went to school to "work" at the snack bar for jv vs frosh/soph haha yeah jv killed them by alot.. then we played against alumni.. haha thank goodness i didnt have to take stats.. haha but yeahh it was a funny game.. rick was anal about it this time.. haha like last year! frickk! but its cool.. haha it was a pretty close game... NOT.. haha :) so john was there :) hahaha that guy... lol anyway.. yeah saw some people that graduated last year.. pretty chill.. then i THINK i went home after that i dont even remember.. thursday morning went to kuya mikes house in diamond bar for a brunch thing for our church.. haha then went with him to stevens house :) we played these card games with his sisters and room mate and him of course.. it was soo funny :) hahah then we went to my place.. and we had a party for the family for thanksgiving and kuya lukes birthday :) kuya mike and i put on a live performance :) haha and he friggin hit my head with the microphone on purpose.. and i just stopped playing cause i was like wtf.. and i didnt know what to do and we just started laughing.. haha then yeah the rest of the night was funnny.. kareoke.. and line dancing with the oldies :) hahahh then friday i forgot what happend.. OH! okay thursday night we fell asleep at ate sues house in anahiem figuring out where we were gonna camp out for black friday.. then we woke up all late.. so we went to brea mall and took us FOREVER to find parking.. and it was jam packed in there so we just booked it and went to active and the hat.. hah SOO good.. then me, ate sue, kuya mike, sophia and nini like KNOCKED out on the same couch.. haha it got HELLA hot but yeahh.. lol then we went home.. and kuya luke, nini and i went to del amo.. we were supposed to watch role models but we didnt.. so we walked around the mall then went to build a bear :) i want someone to build me a bear :( anyway.. we went tto kuya leslies to watch wall e but never FINISHED IT! haha cause nini had to leave.. then saturday was church.. then after chanel came over and we hit the mall again.. for like 2340389 hours.. but itw as funn chillin with my bessfwwen :) hahah her dad is the best! i love him! hahahaha soo funny.. lol he thinks i'm cute :) hahahahha jk.. then today.. uhmm.. went to ericas walked to taylors.. finished wall-e and played guitar hero 3. then went to the mall.. met up with zeina went to her house and chilled.. hahah weekend was pretty chill.. and funn.. well my back hurts i should be heading to bed soon.

goood night :) <33

- rj

ninis debut!

so ninis debut was like the best... EVER! like forreal.. so first we went to school to take pictures for basketball.. haha friggin nana is my herooo!! :D hahah she loves when i write about her.. lol anyway.. yeah after that my mom and i went to the mall.. i forgot why.. OH! cause she wanted to buy shoes for ninis debut.. but i told her not to cause they were hella expensive! so we just ate some gengis khan or however thats spelt.. and we went home and ate sue and ate jellybean were there too.. then i had to get all my shit ready.. then i went with them to anahiem.. and ate jellybean did my hair :D hahah it was funny cause she fixed it like a million times.. and ended up not doing anything to it.. but it looked pretty :) thanks.. then we went to brea mall to get our makeup done by kuya lee's sister :) (sophias moms husbands sister.. hahah) then after that we had to jet to the hotel cause i was late.. so i got there.. and everyone was like "there she is!!" and then someone was calling my name.. and it was joseph! he actually went! all the way from vegas :) haha so we took pictures yadda yadda yadda.. and everyone was coming in.. bunch of family, few friends and a hella lot of ninis church came.. but it was chill.. lol the entrance for the program was scary.. haha i was FIRST! well outta the court.. but the dj's entrance was the best.. he's soo funny best dj so far.. no joke he wasnt wackk at all.. lol so me and brian went in first.. lol got the goosebumps! then my brother and jam.. then nick and eunice i think.. then mateen and kim.. then paulina and peter.. then eileen and marvin then kuya mark and melanie then my gorgeous cousin monica :) she looked so pretty that night! just that night :) hahah jk love you nini.. but forreal like WOW.. haha then we all sat down.. ate.. then they showed the slideshow.. SOO embarassing.. so many pictures of me in there too with my bowlcut :( hahahaha then after that kuya mike performed with his group.. dwayne steven darwin and kuya mark.. it was cute :) haha then after that we did our court dance.. then the dj had to stall and his games were sooo funny.. hahah he gave out gift cards to people that got the questions right about nini.. and i wrote them and i helped everyone :) hahah jk! i told kuya mike the wrong answer!! hahahahh.. sorry.. lol but i got one :) but i gave it to kuya mike cause i felt bad.. haha then after that it was the 18 roses i think and the guys danced with nini.. then kuya jonathan and kuya jun sang somewhere over the rainbow.. and i'm yours.. SOO effing goood! like forreal.. when i sang lucky with my brother it made us look bad.. hahah but yeah i dont remember exactly what we did at the debut but it was HELLA fun.. line dancing.. games.. all that good stuff.. like forreal it was the best.. the after party, dance thing was funn too! :) hahah that awkward big circle no one would dance in except peter, joseph and other people.. haha me and ella tried pushing chanel in.. haha soo funny.. then 3 of us ran in and chanel and i got down on ella :) hahaha well i got down with alot of people actually.. then i sat next to joseph cause i was tired then i went outside the room cause it was HOT.. and he followed me.. and we walked around the hotel.. and yeahh :D you know.. mmm... hahahahah yeahh then we got back to the door and right when we got there they were dancing to "so sexy" and pointing at us.. and it was awkward but we just joined them hahah i love that song! and dance.. its so funn.. then we all hung out for a little after the dancing.. then we went up to our room.. like the whole court and hashir and joseph went into our room.. and we just hung out in there.. lol laying on the pull out couch with joseph :) hahah OH and ella and chanel... haha but yeah.. took pictures :D hahah it was so funny.. then kim turned off the lights and... stuff happend :) hahah jk.. not really.. but yeahh then chanel had to go home so i walked her out.. then i went back up but no one was there so iw ent to the guys' room/aunts room and they were there.. then i heard some news about something from erica so i called her.. and ryan, nick and joseph were leaving so they went into the elevator except joseph cause i guess he was waiting for me.. so i got off the phone.. and we went to go look for them but couldnt find them so we walked around the hotel again and yyouu knoww :) hahah then i walked him to the parking lot and ryan and nick came thru the gate and totally walked past us and ignored my question :( and they were like dont worry you guys still have time :) hahah so joseph and i walked around again.. and went into the ice room hahah.. then ryan and nick came down again so i told him he should go.. haha then they left :( bye bye joseph :( haha then we went back to the room.. and hashir and paulina bought some mcdonalds :) thanks guys it was so yummy.. and we all talked.. nini, kim and april knocked out around 3.. and eunice, paulina and jam were talkin in the bathroom.. and me and ella were bored so i HAD to write on ninis face to be unbored.. so me and ella did that to them the rest of the night and the girls in the bathroom joined us it was hilarious.. hahaha then jam started dozing off.. and we whispered "edward" in her ear and it was funny what her reaction was.. and we did that to eunice too with spongebob :) hahahah then we ended up falling asleep at 5.. and woke up at 10.. and went to mcdonalds.. and ella came over and so did nini and we invited dean over then we went to wilson to play tennis and i hit the ball at him so close to his ear he tried hitting it and cut it! haha i'm sorry :( then we went to target.. then the mall the toys r us..

it was a pretty wild weekend.. i left out ALOT of the crazy wild parts.. haha like ALOT of it.. like most of it.. lol but yeahh.. that was it.. lol :D

i knew today would suck!

So i totally woke up to a bad start.. lol i just had a feeling today was gonna be bad.. school was alright.. went sloww as usually.. 1st period just colored.. 2nd period was like SLOW 3rd.. that was chill talked to matt kim the cutie :) hahah 4th made fun of allen sales :) hahahha dont hurt your wrist reaching for that pen allen :) lol i'm JUST KIDDING! :D lol 5th i actually get what we're doing if i'm not texting 24/7 in that class or listening to my ipod! :) hahah well after that was practice.. sat out AGAIN with nana.. colored :) and then we helped the posts.. she got hit in the head.. so hilarious! 2 seconds later i got hit in the stomach.. haha NOT COOL! :( hahaha it was funny tho.. then i went to go take my written test for my permit.. FAILED! fuckK! i'm sooo mad.. hahah i was off by 1 too!! sheeeit! and it was the easiest oness! i totally like zipped through that test tho.. and didnt study.. excuses.. but hey should've payed more attention and double checked! facckk! now i have to go back and be all nervous again :( i hate it! sheeit.. then went to ninis house for dance practice.. last one!! it was the longest one of my lifee.. hahahh but it was alright.. hopefully everything turns out well tomorrow for the dance.. i'm pretty screwed for the hiphop cause i didnt really practice.. my back was killing me! omg.. my back is fucked.. rotation of my pelvis is wrong.. hyperextended leg.. and a herniated disc? the fuckk! :( i hope i dont need surgery.. what the hell is happening to my life.. i swear.. first i lost "best" friends.. family problems.. my back is killing me.. stressin with school.. BOYS are another big problem.. but its starting to fade cause i'm sick of it.. just gonna drop everything.. and clear my head somehow.. but hopefully tomorrow goes well.. its gonna be a busy day.. basketball pictures.. appointment for hair and make up.. rehersal for dance again.. thennn pictures then the DEBUT! its gonna be a kick! i'm nervous.. i have to sing.. and talk.. and dance.. ahh frickk! lol well another family get together.. my favorite :) hahah i love my family more than anything.. well.. i'm gonna go to bed got a big day ahead of me.. good night! :)

- rj

p.s. happy birthday nini :) <333

four day weekend

so fridayy.. hmm went to the football game and hung out with zeina erica and taylor with the basketball guys.. that was pretty funn :) lol after that I went home.. that was it for friday.. saturday I went to church then when I got home I went to kims for a little with nini.. then went out with brandon.. to rocketship park.. that was grea until.. yeahh anyway.. whatever. sunday.. went to the mall with chanel :) met up with jess zeina erica kyerin dylan and marcus.. and those 2 got kicked outta the mall.. lol stupiid! hahah so we split.. then met up later and kicked it outside of coffee bean.. hahah dylan and marcus caught a cab home.. hahaha that was funny.. thenn me chanel erica jess and kyerin went to pat n oscars and ate breadsticks. then chanel and I played the sugar game.. and we both had to eat 2 packs of sugar! lol then taylor picked me chanel and erica up.. and took us to his complex and we all got to drive his car :) hahah then we went and camped out at southbay port to go taping. haha and saw brandon john and sam.. thenn we went home.. and late that night I got a visit from johnn :) heheh goood stuff ;) nitty gritty! lol thenn monday stayed home basically wit sophia.. grandpa fell and I was scared as hell! but he's okay now.. then later that night vinay and pinto rolled into my house.. lol crazyy ass dayy.. hahah :) then todayy hung out with vinay for a bit.. and watched a movie with kyerin :) bomb ass weekend.. haha lets keep it this wayy :) goood night!


- rj

holy jeez..

i havent written in here for about a month! it's about time :) i've been pretty busy with school and basketball.. sooo not the business anymore.. lol i've been so tired lately.. i needa get better grades i'm slippin bad.. NOT GOOD! i hope i'm not inel.. thatd be pretty bad.. but i dont think it's that bad.. i'm just so glad season is coming so we can get it over with and i'm done! lol i'm finally quitting.. it's just no more funn.. haha anyway..

thats pretty much all thats been going on.. other than ninis debut practices on the weekends.. and hanging out with some friends.. haha her debut is in less than 20 days! i'm scared and nervous! :( well i'm sure everything will turn out great tho :) shes gonna be soo pretty! hahah well yeahh pretty much just school basketball debut practice and hanging out.. NO FUN! :( well it is but help me out... haha

so today was a pretty eventful day :) it should be the best day of my life but its not.. i killed it.. so here it goes.. woke up at 830 to get ready to meet up at ninis to go to buena park to practice for her debut.. did that for about 2-3 hours.. it was chill then we went to the mcdonalds next to knotts.. they had little trains in there but they werent working :( haha gayy! i wanna go to knotts.. i havent been there since 1st grade.. lol but 6 flags is wayy better hands down! lol anyway.. after that we went home and i got ready to go kick it with my best friend chanel shazad :) we went to the mall.. and met up with jessica, zeina, erica, kyerin :) andd dylan and marcus.. haha friggin marcus and dylan got kicked outta the mall and we got split up.. haha dylan marcus jessica and chanel.. and me zeina erica and kyerin.. lol it was alright.. then zeina had to leave :( so we met up with chanel and them.. and it was soo funny cause marcus chased down a taxi to give them a ride home.. hahaha i didn't believe he did it.. but i watched him do it.. hahah then we went to pat n oscars.. (we were at the mall from 3-8) yeah so chanel bought a dozen breadsticks.. lol and we ate it.. then chanel and i got bored so we played the sugar game.. it has to half hang off on your opponents side.. and they have to eat the sugar packet.. lol i lost twice :( first time i had the substitute sugar one and then the 2nd i had the real sugar.. DISGUSTING!! yuckk!! i had to drink some dr. pepper to wash that ishhh downn..and i dont drink soda :( thenn jessica left.. and so did kyerin :( so i told taylor to come get uss.. and we didnt know what to do.. so we went to his complex.. and he let me, chanel and erica drive around.. i'm a pretty good driver :) hahahahha siike.. lol it was funn :) thanks taylorr :) hahah thenn we went into southbay port.. and tried taping over there.. but chanel and erica kept freaking out.. so we just sat in taylors car and literally just sat there and kicked it.. for like 30 mins.. then he took us home.. and then my dream came true :) hahahah no forreall.. lol it was funn :) we were outside just messing around.. lol thenn i couldn't believe how happy i was.. lol it was scary.. so i decided to make myself sad.. lol(who the fuck does that) anyway.. i started reading old conversations and i was listening to my ipod.. sooo not a good idea.. and now i'm sad :( i forgot about the whole "dream coming true" thing.. its nothing compared to this.. lol soo emo.. lol GAYY!! but yeah..

gahhd i feel like a whore.. or slut whichever.. i talk to too many guys at the same time.. i KNOW thats wrong and yet i STILL do it.. what the hell is wrong with me.. i really dont know who i am anymore.. ive changed into a completely diffrent person.. its not even cool.. i'm gonna say how i feel.. and whoever reads this.. well.. i'm sorry if i put you all on blas

i've been busy..

but i'm here now! haha so this past weekend.. i went camping! :) haha that was a trip :) lol it was CRAZY COLD but worth it!!! haha what.. 40 degrees?! i was standing like a foot away from the bonfire.. and if i took one step back i'd be freeezing! i was even wearing 6 layers! hahah well.. wife beater, v neck, yellow sweatshirt, off white jacket, brown vest and basketball jacket.. haha not good enough.. i even slept with a blanket wrapped around me in my sleeping back with another sleeping bag on top.. haha STILL not good enough.. but it was funn.. i enjoyed the pointless game of follow the leader.. hahah that was funny.. and pick puck boom or whatever.. haha and hip hip hoooray.. or ling ling ding or some shit.. idkk but it was funnny.. lol goood times to remember ;) i wont forget it.. lol anyway.. the top 32 rally for homecoming.. was uhmm.. idkk it was good.. i mean you gotta give the dancers credit but still.. EEEEEKK.. haha it's okay.. it was good cause john choreographed it :) hahah JOHN! :) your something... haha :) you better.. you know... lol then after you know... haha :) just do it! :) anyway... yeahh.. so much things are running through my head right now.. it's ridiculous.. but i'm pulling through it.. so hopefully everything will be okay soon.. cause this shit is really killing me.. well i'm off to sleeep i'm tiiired. but listen to this song by aj rafael... it's like my story basically.. lol no forreal.. listen to it..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZ39EjlE3Lk
and support him :)
www.youtube.com/ilajil
and me yeah? :) haha
www.youtube.com/incredibledash

anyway yeah.. go check it..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZ39EjlE3Lk

here are the lyrics

the times that we had they were memorable
and yeah the chance of us together was improbable
but i took a chance for you and everything that i've done
was for you to be happy i wanted to be your only one

i remember we talked every night
loving every millisecond yeah i knew this was right
we talked about being perfect in this cold dark world
but now your truth is finally told

oh i asked if you were sure well i guess you didnt want it anymore
i kinda had a feeling that in the end
you'd choose to just be my friend
i hope that you still care and that you still think about me
you know i think of you every night in my dreams
i really didnt mean to make things end up like this
and now im sitting here still in the cold lonely mist

can you just say that you care
i'll remember all that we shared
im stuck in 100 problems
didnt have to end up this way



yeahh anyway.. lol good night to world. or whoever reads this..

love,
rj

daamnn..

it's been a loooong time since i've blogged.. i'll try to keep it posted.. haha even tho no one reads this.. lol anyway.. this week was hell.. with school, basketball and all that stuff.. lol sooo stressing.. but it was okay i guess.. lol had a few tests.. that i HOPEFULLY passed.. i honestly have to say i winged a few... lol :p but basketball man.. what the eff... running so much lines in the sun.. running up the ramp a billion times.. and running up the stairs around the B building and down 7 times! like forreal.. are you trying to kill us! hahah that was crazyy.. but it's okay i guess it got me ready for today.. had 2 games.. we won by at least more than 30 in both back to back games.. i actually friggin scored! lol and more then 10! hahah :) not combined :) haha anyway.. the football game.. wooowwww we are too good.. lol JUST KIDDING. but we are pretty good 49 -0 for the 2nd time in a row? crazzyyy sheeeit.. haha it was chill tho.. kicked it with chanel, jessica, nick and partly zeina, nana, sara, jt, BRANDON [loner:)] and other people too.. but yeahh.. lol aww i saw my future love again.. ryan davis :) hahah that foo needs to cut his beard off.. and THEN we'll get married :) hahaha just messin.. i miss you tho like forreal.. but other than that last night at the game was not the buisness.. like forreal.. i.. nevermind.. ANYWAY.. i'm friggin tiired.. went to church up in claremont.. drove all the way down to LA in culver city to play 2 games back to back.. went all the way back up to claremont to play somemore basketball.. and finally home. i should be sleeeping. i think i will actually.. lol i think we might move stuff from century 21 to a new office.. hopefully i dont have to do it :) hmm i probably wont even wake up.. lol like seriously my arms and legs are about to like plop off.. lol AJ is in town :) finally.. lol i missed his face :).... like i see him.. anyway.. i'm out. hella tired today.

love
rj

what a week..

so i haven't posted anything lately.. it's been like what.. a week? well this week has been pretty.. wild. lets just put it that way.. with school, basketball, friends, family, boys.. everything! gah damn! schools only stressful cause of everything else that's bothering me.. basketball.. i'm probably gonna quit soon. i'm so sick of it.. like honestly i dont want to play anymore. but whatever we'll see.. friends are just not the buisness right now.. dont you hate when best friends change? yeahh i do.. it's not that great to see them change right before your eyes.. but it happens right? all you gotta do is stand strong for yourself and what you believe in.. i hope this whole phase doesn't change who they are.. anyway.. lukey is leaving me tomorrow.. or today whatever. 10 am sunday morning :[ i'm sooo sad! :[ my best friend is leaving me.. he keeps me sane.. i love you kuya luke.. please stay safe over there in riverside.. i know it's not too far but i wont see you everyday :[ those late drives.. night talks.. everything! they were all so fun :[ i'm gonna miss you soo much! you dont even know :{ i hope everything goes well for you.. come home every so often yeah? :] anyway.. boys aren't the buisness right now either.. it's all such a pain! but whatever i'll get over it all.. i hope you all have a swell weekend. and enjoy it cause the week is comin' up. LAME!

good night..

- rj

weekendd

so this past week i've done about 4 covers? hahah i'm really happy because the feedback i get is soo motivational.. haha thank you! :] lol it made my day.. like no joke! haha but this weekend.. was chill.. church on saturday.. then got my sidekick 08 haha WOO! thenn went to my house for my grandmas party.. that was fun chillin with the fambam again. lol sunday.. today. i woke up at 11.. recorded again.. and went out with my mom and stuff.. got some clothes and felt sick.. but i just had allergies.. i'm soo not stoked for school. i wish i could go to a school where i go to do what i love.. but thats college.. haha mann.. i hate basketball.. i wish i could quit. but my parents wont let me :[ watch! i'll quit one of these days! hahah. anyway.. sorry this post is so short. i'm tired. goood night

love,
rj

p.s. check it out
www.youtube.com/incredibledash

prep/jock day

So today was obviously prep/jock day.. i was totally gonna dress preppy but i woke up too late.. and so i had to get ready, take a shower and all that good stuff.. so i just threw on some basketball shorts and my practice jersey and i was set.. i was pretty comfortable the whole day so i'm pretty glad i wore that.. haha so uhmm.. school was school.. nothing interesting.. korean was a pain today tho.. and so was english.. oh gosh. english. its like 2 hours long and he wont SHUT UP! ;p but it's okk he's chill.. he just talks too much.. so feel free to text me :] haha so after school lukey came to pick me up.. we went to 7/11 and got some grub over there.. then we went home.. and i sat in my room for 2 hours straight and recorded nonstop. "love bug" by the jonas brothers.. you should go check out my channel. i have a few videos up. www.youtube.com/incredibledash.

so after.. i recorded "lucky" by jason mraz by myself using garage band. it was pretty funn to do.. after my mom and i went to khols.. then circut city then best buy to visit my brother.. i saw jt. finally! i miss him!! :[ we needa hang out.. or come over again! haha then i went to office max to get one more notebook.. 27 cents :] haha then target to meet up with nini.. then mcdonalds.. haha then we went backk to my housee and tried some clothes on for tomorrow. smarty pants dayy! :] haha i'm kinda excited to wear my sweater vest.. haha :p and suspenders! hahah anyway.. uhm..i talked to brandon today... he wants me.. soo badd :] hahaha i'm just messin.. but yeah he's coool :] he's writing a song :] how siiickk is that?! haha it's gonna be great i already know it.. haha but yeahhh.. we might hang out friday!! but it depends.. again.. howdy dance anyone? :]

well i had tons of homework to do tonight.. algebra 2, korean 3, chem. blah blah blah but i got it done so i'm pretty pooped from it.. so. smarty pants day tomorrow. whos down to dress.. lets go all out :] alright i'm draineddd!!
good night.

love,
rj

MUSiC. LiVE iT. LOVE IT. DiG iT.

football!

i woke up like 3 times this morning.. then i ended up getting up at like 12? then i ate and got ready and lukey and i went to kuya leslie's house to go kick it and watch some FOOOOTBALLL!! woo! go BENGALS! hahaha jk jk nah they're tight though.. T.O. and L.T! haha too bad they didn't show the charger game.. lame! but uhh we barely got to watch football cause his tv was being WACK with all the regular channels so we ended up watching harry potter and uhmm.. mythbusters! and a bit of criss angel. hahah freakin brandon was teasing me about the game :[ thanks! hahah it's chill tho. so we hung out for a bit then went to the mall. i hung out with ranil while my cousins went to bj's and stuff. haha it was pretty chill.. just walkedd around.. suprisingly i saw BRANDON! the tease.. JK JK! :] hahah but yeah and ryan lazy! :] and other people but yeahh those 2.. haha :] anyway.. yeahh i went home and got my clothes ready for tomorrow.. western day! YEEEEAHH SONN!! hahah jailhouse juniors dance anybody?
good night!

love,
rj

lomita fair.

So today was a very touching/bad/frustrating/happy/fun/weird day. so i was at church today.. and my brother and i were sitting outside and i was playing guitar while having a very deep conversation about our relationship with God. My brother was pretty like.. idkk how to explain it but.. he wasn't happy he was more like confused or something.. or unhappy.. i dont know but iw as playing.. then out of no where some lady on her bike rolls in and asks me what songs i play and i got shy and didn't say anything.. and so i played "open the eyes of my heart" for her and sang.. she hummed along and what not.. then she showed me how to play "just a closer walk with thee" and i was like wow.. cause she had the voice of an angel.. and as she was leaving she told me she was recently diagnosed with cancer.. and she was happier than ever that she's close to God and how she can ttalk to him.. and when she was getting on her bike.. i looked down for 2 seconds and looked back up.. and she was no where to be seen.. i was looking for her everywhere.. and i started tearing up.. and i knew she was an angel.. i'm sorry if it sounds dumb to some people but it was like the highlight of my day. it was amazing.. i wish something like that can happen again.. it was a great experience. well after i was supposed to go to practice but my dad decided to make other plans to go check out some camp site. so yeahh.. i was pretty pissed at him.. ontop of that it was HELLA traffic on the way home.. so by the time we got to nini's it was finished. so i just showed up to listen to auntie talk about what she had to talk about.. and i only saw him for like 2 mins :[ how saddd :[ oh well hopefully tomorrow right? :] anyway.. after that we went to the fair again! ahh! hahah kicked it with nick the whole time :] and nana at some parts.. we went on zipper 3 times.. and that spinny thing twice.. and the loop thing once.. and i felt like barfing!! hahaha oh and nick bought me a funnel cake.. yumm :] haha thank nick.. it wasn't so great when i felt like throwing it all up.. i still feel dizzy even till now.. i needa lay down :[ good night.

love,
rj